It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care
I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
That's coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you
I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
And once upon a song
Now I know your not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I can tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Cause I liked the view
When there was me and you
I can't believe that
I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind
Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you
Labels: the 5th
banana oreo bubble tea chocolate+butter waffle beef steak hot plate yee mee milk ice with strawberry chocolate cookies butter cookies chicken cordon bleu mixed fruits fruity yoghurt shake sushi plain milk ice donutss
are among what i filled my stomach (to the brink!) today! Oh mfsg and it's all cause of Nabil luh! Who? My cousin. Nur Na(billa-bong). Hahaha. Always love teasing her. And apparently Malaysians isn't aware of the existence of tights (me) & gladiator sandals (Nabil) cause they were rude-rly staring at us. Like hello, we don't need your eyes stripping us from top to bottom? CHEEESE.
But aside from that, me and Nabil had outrageous fun! {: Got matching colour beaded bracelets, yep we did. Pretty pretty. :D At first we had to split the bunch of six into two as there weren't any more bunches then i spy with my little eye another bunch hanging! SCORE!
Supaaaaaaa-duper happy! Bye! &Oh, ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhmyg, pizza hut-cum-present exchanges tmr with teamies love. FAINTS. And I keep questioning as to why I can never seem to shake off the over excess weight I've piled on. Tsk tsk ah! O Shucks.
HAHA, CHATTING WITH THE TWO COUSINS REALLY TICKLES ME PINK, GREEEN! Okay, really, bye! {:
P/s: Number of words (including HTMLs and this sentence) = 320 Words.
Haha, inside joke! :D
Labels: food food foood and moreeee fooooood
It don't do me any good it's just a waste of time
What use is it to you what's on my mind?
If it ain't comin' out, we're not going anywhere
So why can't I just tell you that I care?Omfffffffffffg 1:16AM and I'M STILL NOT FUCKING DONE WITH THAT LITTLE CORNER OF MY ROOM eversince 9plus-ishPM. HO HUM looks like I gotta get over and done with it if I want to make it for tomorrow's outing with Bff! OH SHIT! I FORGOT SOMETHING! CHEEEESEEEEEEE! S h i t, I think I won't make it in time for tomorrow's. Oh shucks. What a wonderful surprise it might have been then. :(
OH BOTHER. :(
(TSK)x1000000000000000000000000
(H) HEL - ☑ YOUNG ☑ FLASHY ☑ FLY @ STREETFAMILY says:
den ask him uh
<3 Tgrlyrrx says:
iler?!?!
<3 Tgrlyrrx says:
i mena gielr!?!?
<3 Tgrlyrrx says:
i mean gielr?!?!
<3 Tgrlyrrx says:
TSK!
<3 Tgrlyrrx says:
I MEAN GILER?!!
<3 Tgrlyrrx says:
HAHAHAHAH
(H) HEL - ☑ YOUNG ☑ FLASHY ☑ FLY @ STREETFAMILY says:
wahaha
(H) HEL - ☑ YOUNG ☑ FLASHY ☑ FLY @ STREETFAMILY says:
GILER!
Hahahaha shit, got so excited over Mission FI'sE till my fingers spasm-ed. Die luhhhhhh like this. FAINTS.
Labels: hel, mission FI'sE
"I can't get you out of my mind, even when I close my eyes. "
{:
Labels: mission FI'sE
Mood:
{thoughtful}
Sometimes I wonder, what's the point in trying to talk to someone who just doesn't seem interested in what you have to say, who, with a flick of their hand, could just wave away whatever you have to say. It's as if you're this troublesome fly that they're trying to swat away. What's the bloody fucking point in trying when it ain't appreciated? Well soon you'll come to realise that it's true, that there isn't any bloody fucking point for you to try to keep on bleating. Soon, you will just be numb to the fact that they're not gonna be bothered with you. Soon, it'll be vice versa. Soon.
HELLO!
HAPPY 20TH ANNIVERSARY TO MY PARENTS! MAY YOU BE BLESSED WITH A LONG AND LOVING MARRIAGE WITH PLENTY OF YEARS TO COME! :D
I don't wish to say much actually. Haha. Seems like Mission FI'sE will be put on hold until school reopens. Not much can be found on the net, useless really. I get the same results everytime I try, HAHA. New Year's coming. I guess the usual resolutions will be made pretty soon. Then the list will get chuck somewhere which I will only dig up back months later; by accidental most of the time while spring-cleaning, laugh at myself and the resolutions made and prolly chuck the list one side again. Been re-reading the adventures of Harry Potter and his mates over and over again. Though I've read it few times, it still gives me the grip and chills. I really really wish Ron and Hermione will just get married both in reel and real life. HEHE. Keep wishing.
Methinks this post is boring. Methinks me should end it.
Now.
Labels: bad habit, happy 20th anniversary mummy daddy
Current Potterpuff:
{giggly!}
Why giggly? HEHE, for me to know, for no one to find out. Well, Kae knows lah. Hint, hint: Mission FI'sE! Hehehehehe. Tiq mentel, HA HA.
Okay, chaloteh!{:
Labels: mission FI'sE
Current Potterpuff:
{accomplished!}I did major hustlin' today, major. HAHAHAHA! Well only Khabir knows what that means. HOHOHO. Me, Kae and Hel were so smart today. Got each-self one large cup of DQ! Faints. And now I've got a headache to thank DQ for. Hahahahaha. And I saw Sharp! Wheeeeeeeeeeeeee. ^^v. Well actually Hel spotted her lah. I turned back only in time to see this familiar hair bobbing in a red shirt. AND I ACTUALLY CHASED AFTER HER, HAHAHAHA. Then, ran back to where Kae and Hel was standing cause I suddenly had a case of Malu-itis. Dangerous. Makes your ___________. *shows action. HAHAHAHAHA idiot, Kae laughed when i did the action. Haha! Bumped into so many people in Fareast! Or rather, they bumped into me. My name was shouted a couple of times, hahaha. Thanks Bestf and Bbyg for accompanying me! Secret Devlin, I've got your Christmas gift now! HOHOHO. :D
Kae, Hel, I LOVE YOU TWO TO DEATH. Really! I swear, always and forever. {: I know Imma busy girl, but, I'll try to be there as much okay! I'm really sorry idk what to say otp just now Bbyg, I really suck at cheering people up. ): But no matter, I tried! Hehe. And Hel, hehehe, we chould go eat bubur chacha superrrrrr soon aye! :D
Sharppppppp har, me hopes to see you soon at Jurong HAHA! Okay, merepek.
Nights! No more them grey skies. {:
Labels: DQ mates, hustling, sharp
Current Potterpuff:
{loved!}
CAUSE ME IS MEETING BESTFRIEND AND BABYGIRL LATER! YAY! :D
DQ DQ and more DQ later! So happy, can't wait! {:
Labels: babygirl, bestfriend
Current Potterpuff:
{blank}First of all, congrats to Liptalk, WFM and G.O.D. for clinching Top 3 in Protege! {:
Okay I think life is getting mundane-er by the hour, minute, second, ahhh well, you get the idea. And someone wasn't there cause apparently he wasn't feeling too good. ):
Owells. I just hope Bestf and Bbyg are managing well. Remember that me over here lurbs yous! {:
Alright, :
with love ; Eupxhricm.Inxc™ says:
must say, "MIDZI MAKES THE NIGHT SEEM SO MEREPEK"
HAHAHAHA there you go Midziiiiii! Happy not? Say I rock in yours eh. Hahahaha. And yeah, Midzi proves to be a nice chatter buddy, exchanging emoticons and all, hahaha. :D I'll be expecting great praises about me after you read this eh. Hint hint. HAHAHA.
Okay byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeez! {:
/edtz.
Tgrlyrrx hearts Bloopx2. says:
okay okay! first word is?
sharp says:
hahahahaha i tell you la
Tgrlyrrx hearts Bloopx2. says:
hahaha clue leh
Tgrlyrrx hearts Bloopx2. says:
DONT WQNT!
Tgrlyrrx hearts Bloopx2. says:
-A
Tgrlyrrx hearts Bloopx2. says:
wanna guess HOHO
sharp says:
bang wall and die
Tgrlyrrx hearts Bloopx2. says:
show you me eq power!
Tgrlyrrx hearts Bloopx2. says:
WALAO!
Tgrlyrrx hearts Bloopx2. says:
I DIDNT SEE THAT!
Tgrlyrrx hearts Bloopx2. says:
alammak!
sharp says:
hahahahah RIGHT
Tgrlyrrx hearts Bloopx2. says:
REALLY!
Tgrlyrrx hearts Bloopx2. says:
AHHH OKAY, i guess ahhhh, BANG WALL AND DIE! :D
sharp says:
awwww so clever-_-
Tgrlyrrx hearts Bloopx2. says:
HAHAHAHAHAHA awwww, ty^^
Was trying to figure out what BWAD was, unsuccessfully, unfortunately. ): HAHA. But i still think my EQ power high leh.
Labels: bbyg, bestf, BWAD, midz, protege, sharp
a. i hearts family.
b. i hearts top 7.
c. i hearts friends.
d. i hearts teamies.
e. i hearts green.
f. i
g. i hearts food.
h. i hearts canoe polo.
i. i hearts zzz monster.
j.
Labels: i hearts
(why) can't we do this once more?
Labels: A
YESTERDAY. WAS. THE. BOMBBBBB.
HAHAHAHAHAHA!!
Okay seriously, I think yesterday was the hardest I've ever laughed this week/month. Alllll thanks to: FAKIR! Hahahaha! He entertained me, Kae, Hel & Syugs with his super funny super kecoh acts! I swear, the boy could be a stand up comedian shiol. I think for me, the funniest part was when he started "hoppping."
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA FUNNNNEH TO THE MAXMAXMAXX.
And also! He has a signature move already, "Daaamn, *this ultra hilarious movement between his fingers and lips which caused me and Syugs to erupt with infectious laughter*" Man! You really gotta be there. We were laughing so hard and loud that the minahs and matreps were all looking at what was all the commotion about. Oky cut short, I really enjoyed the lepak yesterday. HOHOHO super shiok! :D
Okay this was meant to be a quickie post. Update laters, bye! :D
Labels: esplanade, funny funny funny fakir
Alright let's post a quick one before I shower and head to school, heeheeee. :D
Wanted to post more in yesterday's post but emotions interventions had control over me. (HAW HAW) Oooookay,
Was supposed to head down to Esplanade but didn't in the cause Krazie Starr wanted to buy beats from Supreme. After that, I was feeling purrty hungry so we went to have dinner at the nearby coffeeshop. I bugged him to eat quick for I was running reeeeel late already but in the end, after something happened, I wasn't that late after all. So what did we do? We went to White Sands! AND PLAYED ARCADE, HAHAHAHA. S'been ages since I last played a game or two in one! I looooove the shooting hoops game. But, tsk, the machine cheated us because when the timer started counting, the balls didn't come rolling! GASP. Hahahahahaha. Ended up, I had to jump and reach for the balls. THEN ONLY, did the balls came rolling. TSK! But owells. Damage's done.
Walked around, was supposed to get bubble tea from outside but passed by Swensen's, had a majorly heavy craving for their topless 5! HAHAHA so I bugged him again, saying that I wanted to eat that. He wanted a banana split instead and we quarelled outside Swensen's and in the end he pulled me inside, saying that we should get a seat first. HOHO. Inside, still quarelled somemore! SMACKS FOREHEAD. In the end I got my topless 5! :D :D And he got some steak cause he didn't finish his chicken cutlet rice.
Went to pick my Aunt from the airport afters. EAT AGAIN. tsk. Ate alot man. Oooh, there was a cute waiter there. HEH HEH. There was at this point where I wanted to order garlic bread and he came over to take my order then as he couldn't hear what I was saying, he leaned forward AND OMG HE WAS LESS THAN 30/20CM AWAY FROM MY FACE.
FAINTS.
Labels: brother, cuteeee waiter, swensen's
I had a super real duper sad dream last night. I was practically frowning the whole dream throughout. ): I dreamt of Malik! ))))))):
“those despair calls, was it from you?”
he asked.
I remembered this line. I can't remember the lines after but all I know, after this line, I was already in tears, my heart aching. And I think, I saw his face but it was quite vague. Sighs. And just a few days back, I actually thought I saw him in Canteen 1. Same hair, same height, I did a double take. For a second I really thought it was him and then I remembered that he's no longer here and I realised, he's not gonna be anywhere else on Earth, no longer, no more. Well the only place on Earth that he's gonna be is about a few graves from my late grandmother. That's where.
Okay, I'll update laterrrrrrs. Bye.
Labels: malik malik malik malik malik
Go to sleeeeep, go to sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.
This is an unnecessary post. OMG. I just took fucking 2mins to spell and re-spell 'unnecessary' .____."
Idk why this post is up. Maybe I'll come back and edit it. Maybe. HOHOHO. Team lunch's cancelled, or rather postponed, cause JQ can't make it. Aww shucks.
Alrights 1:41AM and I think I should be sleeping as of...........
NOW!
Labels: goodnight post, sleeeeeeeeeeeeep
Fai invited me to hang out with the people today. S'been quite some time and since Supreme's going, i suppose I'm going too since I'm meeting him later. I guess I'll be getting my IVP jacket back cause Fai asked if I wanted him to bring it. I said anything but I didn't bring Jid's along with me to exchange it back. But ah, the joy of having my jacket back(!). Like, finally. Yayzz. :D
New skin! I think the scribbles are cute, the main reasonas to why i took such a huge fancy to it. The part which was the most troublesome was obviously,
links. I've never liked doing them. Linking, or relinking, both are such a hassle. That's why i asked not to relink. Cause I know it's irritating and leceh. Well, to me lah. Hohoho. But, if you want me to link/relink you, just say lah. I won't snap at you for it. I might just take a super long time to do it if I'm busy. Ha ha!
I miss Hel, Kae, Supreme. Eversince my phone's not with me, I feel so disconnected with them. Supreme especially. Atleast I get to chat with Hel and Kae but Supreme's rarely online nowadays and finally yesterday, he IM-ed me. Catched up abit, found out that he wanted to get hold of me to let me know of the upcoming chalet but he couldn't get through cause d-duh, my phone's MIA. Sheeesh. Well atleast I'm meeting him later, I think. HAHA. Proper catching ups then! And i uberuberuberuberuberuber miss Hel and Kae too. These two sayangs of mine. When is our DQ date! ): Soon, oh please do make it soon. Love you one two three people. Super yes effing much.
Hold on to this burning heart, this burning heart is getting old, it's getting old. While sitting on this cold kitchen floor, head down to hide the tears, I've realized, I've finally realized, that you were never, You were never meant for me.
Labels: DLD, lepak, misses, new skin
Hello! Clock shows 11pm and so I'm turning in now, Bye!
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzxoxo.
Labels: sleeeeeeeeeeeeep
Once upon a time
I believe it was a Tuesday
When I caught your eye
We caught onto something
I hold onto the night
You looked me in the eye
And told me you loved me
Were you just kidding?
Cause it seems to me
This thing is breaking down
We almost never speak
I don't feel welcome anymore
Baby what happened
Please tell me cause one second it was perfect
Now you're halfway out the door
And I stare, at the phone
He still, hasn't called
And you feel so low you can't feel, nothing at all
And you flashback to when he said
Forever and always
Oh, and it rains in your bedroom, everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
Cause I was there when you said
Forever and always
Was I out of line? Did I say something way to honest?
Did you run and hide like a scared little boy?
I looked into your eyes, thought I knew you for a minute
Now I'm not so sure
So here's to everything
Coming down to nothing
Here's to silence
That cuts me to the core
Where is this going?
Thought I knew for a minute but I don't anymore
And I stare, at the phone
He still, hasn't called
And you feel so low you can't feel, nothing at all
And you flashback to when he said
Forever and always
Oh, and it rains in your bedroom, everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
Cause I was there when you said
Forever and always
Didn't mean it baby?
I don't think so
Back off, baby back off
Did you forget everything?
Back up, baby back up
Did you forget everything?
Oh, and it rains in your bedroom, everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
Cause I was there when you said
Forever and always
And I stare, at the phone
He still, hasn't called
And you feel so low you can't feel, nothing at all
And you flashback to when we said
Forever and always
And it rains in your bedroom, everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
Cause I was there when you said
Forever and always
Didn't mean it baby
Said forever and always
Labels: 18, 2, 22, 23, 24, 26, 28, 3, 31
THE END OF CTs! :D
Like, finally. BIG PHEW.
NOW i can finally sleep with peace
NOW i can finally use my laptop without guilt
NOW i can finally so some proper catching ups
NOW i can finally kick back and relaxxxxxxx!
:D
I didn't get any proper sleep last night, kononnyer nak study lah tu. Chatted with bestf, got abit carried away when the subject of
ahemahem was brought up. HAHAHAHAHAHA! Well let's just say, i love yesterday's song that was on replay after hours.
okay, bye!
Labels: CTs, KOW, prince
ONE MORE PAPER, ONE MORE PAPER ONLYYYYYYYYY.
Just this one night without sleep, you can sacrifice lah, no doubt. Just for MAMS, your
one last paper. Then you can sleeeeep all you want, wheeeeee! Okay, back to intensive studying! MAMS is that one subject I'm
not looking forward to failing. Cause I know that I'm quite okay in it, I think. Think only lah. Hahahaha. Alrights here we go then! (:
Suddenly, I miss Mr Stabs. Tsk, tak penting eh Atiqah. Don't dwelll laaaaaaaaaaa. Tsk. Time spent in the school's library is like a trip down my memory lane with you. Haiyooooooh. Over, soon. Soon. Soooooooooooooon. But still, I miss you. Even after what has happened, I miss you. Machiam bodoh kan. HOHO, that's Aticktick for you.
Stabs on tonight, I wear you to keep me from the cold.
But ironically you, you left me out in the cold.
So cold, with nowhere to go.
Baby, "How could you be so Dr Evil?"
Labels: mams, stabs
HAHAHA, NOW I’M REALLY REALLY REALLY HAPPY! THANKS SO MUCH BESTF! LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU!
OMG OMG OMG OMG EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEPP. HAHAHA! ANOTHER SUBLIMINAL MESSAGE FOR BESTF! HEEEEEE, AH, SUKE! HEHEHEHE. OKAY SHIT, I SOUND SO FUCKING GAY AND I SHOULD PROLLY GET A HOLD OF MESELF. HAHAHAHA SHIT.
THREE WORDS TONIGHT, WAS ALL IT TAKES FOR ME TO MAKE IT THROUGH TOMORROW. :D :D
SUPER COOL, SUPER AWESOME! GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH. OKAY, SHALL STOP NOW. GHEEEEEEEEEE?!
:D :D :D :D :D
CHALAKUCHACHAAA, CHALAKUCHACHAAA, CHALAKUCHACHAAA~ :D!
Labels: epp, exhilarated, hel, lovee
Wheeeeeeee I have many friends now, malay friends especially! Well the chinese still overrides the malay and the boys are still a majority as compared to the girls but hey, it's a start right? Yay ay ay ayyyyyy, I ammmmm happy! :D
Thank God, I am grateful. (:
It's been in the past for a while
I get a flash and I smile
Am I crazy?
Still miss you baby~
Labels: contented, friends, friends and more friends, jt
Hello! Sorry, couldn't resist, teeeheeee. I've a sudden itch to use blogskins, (HAH, YES, BLOG
SKINS) so ta-da! Fresh from the oven. I didn't want to re-use the old blogger blogs that I have for an uncertain reason which, I myself do not know of. Hahaha.
Alrights so met Hisham aft MEM CT! Twas alright lah, quite a breeze. 'Cept was quite stumped in some questions. HOHOHO. Laypak at OurSpace and went for late lunch at SIM. HAD LOTSA GOOD LAUGHS THERE I TELL YOU. HAHAHAHAHA. Every minute was filled with endless laughter, eating has never been such a fun affair, i swear! :D
Then me, Hisham and Fana headed down to Boon Lay to check check it check it out the neu Jurong Point.
Awesome! I felt like a lost kid walking around. Was super sad that Sweet Talk hasn't open, so i got Sweeties from JP1 instead, bahahaha. Oooh, can't wait to shop there! It's like VivoCity, only MUCH MUCH convenient. I predict seeing myself on the sofas of Starbucks quite frequently in the very very near future. HAHAHA! ^^v.
I love today, a day so oh oh funnnnnn! (: Though bus rides with Hisham are very, i repeat,
very dangerous. Especially if you want to sleep, DON'T, sit on the seat infront of him. Why? Do lah, and you'll know why. Hahahahaha!
Okay, let's post this baby up! (:
Labels: jp, laughlaughlaugh, newwwwww
